Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in mast_a_bater's LiveJournal:

Saturday, March 19th, 2005
5:08 pm	dont waste ur time on me ur already the voice inside my head i hate this period of this situation, when u wanna say so much, and u wanna know what is being thought but there is no communication. This prolly doesn't make sense, but communication is a mofo, conscience is a mofo, it all just messes u up. I lack balls, i want to say a whole lot but i cant. I love John Howard! Current Mood: confused Current Music: blink-182 - Here's your letter (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
3:53 am	fuck the world is uncomprehandable. Its full of imperfection, there is no perfect person, every 1 has flaws. There is no use trying to be a perfect person, trying to be nice gets u no where. U often earn respect, but whats that worth? u get trod on if u r nice. Whats happiness? i have what some would see as a good life, but i am not happy. Am i just looking for as close to perfection as possible. Or is it sumthing else... One person half seen thru me.... but i think she was full of shit... i'm sorry. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: anything slow (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
10:10 pm	wow have u ever been secretly inlove with a girl for so long, then gettin over it eventually, but then like a while later u find out she wanted u too, but now its too late to act....not that its happened to me reciently but its happened so often... it sucks hey. Its like the worst feeling ever, knowing u missed out! I once missed out on a cooky at an open day at my skool.... that stayed with me forever. I've got nothin... i have studied for 2 exams and i am fucked, lets hear it for me! wooooo yeah! I miss my childhood, i dunno where it went? Was any 1 else a fuck up from years 7-10? if i fuck up this hsc i blame menai high, and there inability to control students and keep them on track, fuck those guys, i was a kid, how am i to know, there was no warnings, all u need to say is, its ur hsc bitch! listen to ur parents fuckers! Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: jimmy eat world (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 10th, 2004
11:07 pm	wow i like catching up with old friends, but only the nice once, ones that are actually making there life productive right now. Like i dont take friends for granted as much as it may seem, like i care about them all, and like altho i worry about them all, there are some that i worry about more than others, i dunno why i do but yeah. I dont really know what i am getting at, but yeah pretty much friends are vital, u never know when u could get in shit, and u should be ready to do anything for them, just like they should for u, I'm jerry spring, take care of uselves and each other Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
4:37 pm	ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ok it has been brought to my attention today that i know fuck all about the hsc.... well at least for english i know nothing! I am now fretting that i will not know any of the questions for the paper, therefore i cant pre-prepare a practice essay thing, its absolutelyfuckedlikenothinginthisworld! Screwed is an understatement. fuck this shit i dont wanna do it any more. Lets hear it for dropping out? Current Mood: scared Current Music: silence......... (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 9th, 2004
7:27 pm	optimistic ok my last few comments have been abit fucked up and emo, so i thought i might start with a brighter note of sun shit lolly pops and rainbows everywhere. Lfe is good today, i think the lack of study today has left me all good and shit u know, but hey it might change. i dont like being happy and shit i have nothin to write, except blink 182 disapoint me, its like when u have a fight with ur bf/gf and like u know u still like them and shit just it will take awhile to get over. i am still hangin out to see the new video, i'll have to do sum serious searching, speaking of bands 1 who never disapoints would have to be the living end. I love those guys. any who thats about all for me, peace dawgs. These little emoticons down the bottom suck, they are all the same and look nothing like they are meant too Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: blink 182 - down (Comment on this)
Friday, October 8th, 2004
9:13 pm	.... man i am so toey right now study got me all fucked up, masturbations lost its fun and ur fucking lonley? i think that how it goes to quote the words of a great 1. Too many girls are high strung, i say fuck them, but then alot of girls aren't and i love those girls. I had sumthin else to say, oh well how good are fenix tx, i want there cds and children. I appologise for these unclean thoughts i am having about many different women, i know its not right. Just because i am on a diet doesn't mean i cant look at the menu, unless my gf is present, then thats weird and shit.... Rival schools are kool too, every 1 listen to rival schools. any who best be off bye Current Mood: horny Current Music: fenix tx and rival schools (Comment on this)
7:16 pm	feelin this! ok listening to blink.... feeling a little emo.... not because of blink but because this study is killing me, i hate it, it should rot in hell, along with my scores in the hsc. Why cant it just be easy like i imagined back when i wa young, when the world was full of hope? sounds so cliche but its so tru, my parents were right about so much, i have so much regret, well no regret i dont regret anything really, just like... so much i would change if i could see what i see now. But i spose thats the deal with life, u never know whats coming.... u can make shit happen, but there is things we cant control. like our bladders, do u think if i shit my pants i wont have to sit the hsc? thats my thinking. any who back ok task, i need sum 1 to guide me thru life, i cant do this myself, sum 1 to like..... tell me hey do this..... i need a better conscience..... any 1 know where i can get 1? Current Mood: mellow Current Music: blink or the cure (Comment on this)
5:04 pm	fuck study this shit sucks ass, i am so sick of it, can any 1 suggest a health alternative to that of the life of study? How about like a like smart drink or sumthin, that will also make me more sexy. This is shittin me Current Mood: frustrated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
11:00 pm	i wish... i wish i had sumthing really important and kool to write, but really i dont, my life is sweet, check out urs it prolly is too, however i am still able to complain about the outside world. its not that good u know i wish i could heal the pain, in stead i stop and stare in vein, look at myself and what i am, no longer a boy but no yet a man, i wish i could change for you, i'd stop my thoughts, if you told me to. you look at me, your gaze is sharp, like 1000 nails straight to the heart, i feel the first peirce my skin, i break from this, and scream within, is that any good? i like making up bullshit and i appologise for that Current Mood: blah Current Music: nfg (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:23 pm	i wish i was a member or greenpeace..... wait no i dont (Comment on this)
3:55 pm	why?.... ok another genius idea had was to post a whole heap of rhetorical questions, feel free to do so as well. why do; - girls start showing interest when ur taken? -bad people get all the luck? - nice guys finish last - the living end rock so much? -i suck as at exams? -i get so mixed up over nothing? -i find it hard to get inspiration? Current Mood: drained Current Music: tle- fly away (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:55 pm	more... i appologise to every 1 for the period in my life when i thought i was black, i appologise to every 1 for the period in my life (now) when i think i am punk. I appologise to cassie for saying no to going to the year 6 fairwell with her. i appologise to the many girls i have tried to tune over the years. i appologise to any girls who have tried to tune me and i have been too stupid to notice. I appologise for this page and this idea (Comment on this)
1:31 pm	appologise ok i came up with an idea. This is gunna be a page where people including myself should feel free to post appologise. It heaps rad just think about it. Even if its sumthin tupid like i apologise to mrs combes for throwing chalk which hit her butt back in year 8. I think the suspension was abit over the top but.... Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: tle (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
11:07 pm	this worlds an ugly place...but ur so beautliful... I hate being judged prematurely, how many people really know me well enuff to say hey.... he's a kunt? I say 2... the two people that are the reason i am here. Can u guess who they are? I wouldn't care if i had a birthday party ever year and only 5 people showed up. I'd care(altho i no doubt wouldn't know) if only 5 people turned up to my funeral. Ok back on task, heres a scenerio, ur at work and sum 1 walks in with a huge scar on their face, what do u do? Freak out and say nothing and try not to look? It natural, complete human instinct. But even tho the look different its no need to be a fuckwit about it. I cant stand people who make jokes over appearence (i know i have done it but so what) just cause the person isn't the best looking doesn't mean shit. Altho its not always like the movies, the "ugly" person isn't always nice or inlove with the hot guy. I dont know what my point is here. but basically dont judge on appearence. Some people need to seriosuly think... i doubt this is any 1 actually reading this, but i know alot of friends (i spose they should be classified as old friends now) have short memories. As for those of you who wanna bash me cause i am a dickhead. I have been a dickhead for a good.....8 years and counting. Why decide now u wanna do it? I dont understand that 1 personally. I cant stand those who follow blindly, dont question things... or like a wise friend once said, u have to see things from both points of view... i'll always remember that and her, if only we were still good friends... Those of u who spend ur life being sheep, goodluck with that... WHAT ARE FRIENDS? Current Mood: lonely Current Music: blink (Comment on this)
9:47 pm	ok 2nd post yes i am gunna name every single fucking 1! i just thought i should tell u all this....... bah! and robert is gay, yes robert, he does boys..... who is robert u may ask.... truth is i dont know. sorta wanna get drunk, have sex with a random then call myself george. If u want sex to call me, if u dont have my number well..... u know.... i swear i love u. (Comment on this)
9:19 pm	fuck shit fuck fuck! ok this is my first entry in this thing and if u read it u will prolly think this guy is a fucking idiot, well yes i am! and i am sorry for that. I dont have much to write, well i do but i dont wanna write it. Technology these days aye, i remember when i use to write in a book. well fuck this i is going peace out y'all! Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: the living end (1 Comment |Comment on this)